P.S. Bakom stängda dörrar English
Publicerad 2020-09-10 15:47:00 i Animalism, Church History, Evilness, History, History of Literature, History of religion, Jesus, Marcus Mahdi, Philosophy, Psychiatry and psychology, Sin, The animals,
(excerpt from Marcus Beijar Mellin’s (mahdi’s) autobiography ”P.S. Bakom stängda dörrar” (2018) (”P.S. Behind closed doors” (2018)), third edition, s. 178-188, translated by Lars Larsen)
Most men are afraid of what they cannot understand, because it gets them to feel, that they are not Masters, that there is something behind them, like a shadow, that can come and assault them at any time.
The early psychoanalysts, named it the subconscious, but it was only subconscious as long as one kept it back, and one was controlled by this subconscious.
Wilhelm Reich, believed only in the rational, and he also discovered energies in the body, which really were energies, which were maybe not rational at all, but were life!
Life comes first, then the rational.
All other beings, only does things, but through the fact that we humans have language, we can control ourselves, but it can also control us!
The question that we all wrestle with is then: shall we control our lives with language, i.e. have bigger chance to survive through our prudence, or shall we only let life go as it goes?
If one places oneself on the street and screams ”I am schizoprenic!”, this is immediately perceived as if one were mad….yes, the very fact that one screams at all makes one to a madman.
But do the birds not sing, do the cows not moo, do the apes not chatter?
But by humans the life energy most often is expressed in gossip.
Gossip is a way to make a person down, which another person from the beginning wanted to make down, but had not the power to carry it out himself.
Then this person goes to a second party and talks to him, and this person talks in turn with a third one; so a group is formed which is against a special person, and now maybe they can make him down, if they are several?
Many poets have refused to regard this rule, and have said that they are immortal anyway, so ”make me down, but I will survive!”, and so it has also become; have not Jesus’ words, Rembrandt’s paintings, Beethoven’s tones, all persisted and been praised?
All these had economical problems: in fact Jesus did not own anything, but then he also were a prophet of God and could change a little fish to a whole lake.
Rembrandt was fashionable for a moment, but then he went into personal bankruptcy, but he barely survived.
So during the times they lived (just look at van Gogh) they were expelled from the group, they were gossiped about, but some also loved them (van Gogh has here lowest status, who only was loved by his brother and his wife, and maybe some few more) and these persons who loved them, they have at least in the case of Jesus become their messengers, become men who has carried out their words into the world.
Reich believed that man is only a complex composition of everything it has experienced, but I have in my life seen evidence to the contrary.
We are a complex composition of everything that exists, the Buddha nature, maybe even the devil, everything we can sense.
But in all this we are ourselves something, too.
Reich expanded the horizons for many, William S. Burroughs expanded them even more, and we can thank their work for our consciousness.
Burroughs thought the middle class should be extinguished, he saw them only as walking tape recorders and not at all as humans.
He was of the action-orientated disposition, and his art was an exact reflection of his life.
We who are sitting here at home in Stockholm (if this now shall be called home), can see how the cars take over the streets, vehicles who aren’t even alive, who can kill you without feeling any shame, but the drivers then? Shall we really risk being killed by cars at any time, only because the middle class want to move themselves from one place to another? The brainwashed middle class, is there any hope for it? I have at least for 6 years tried to inform my parents about that the media only brainwashes them. Has it had any effect? My mother seems to see some truth in it, but my father sees in it only a sign of mental illness. So what shall one do?; murder? change? There is no answer to this question. Many solutions?
Blake says that every thing that is said, which can be trusted, is a picture of the truth.
Let us now speak a little truth: Reich unfortunately did not study poetry so much, and if he did it, he always viewed it as an expression of madness, a madness that he was himself contaminated by, therefore he went into the world to save it – while others only followed, and enjoyed the fruits of the work of others.
This is the big poetic question: shall we save the world (which have to be saved because it is like it is) or shall we as artists only follow, entertain the middle class, live easily and comfortably?
If we choose the other, we are not in strict terms any poets or artists, but only clowns, entertainers, and it is nothing wrong with entertainment for those who have saved themselves, while entertainment for those who are hopelessly behind, only is a way of putting the cart in front of the horse.
Publicerad 2020-08-12 16:37:00 i Antipsychiatry, Evilness, Marcus Mahdi, Psychiatry and psychology, Psychoses, Satan, the demiurg and demons, Sex,
(the text is translated by Lars Larsen, and is from Marcus Beijar Mellin’s autobiography ”P.S. Bakom stängda dörrar” (P.S. Behind closed doors) from 2018. It is the continuation of the last text)
(Here is the last part of the text)
When we then fall to the ground and die – (the process of forgetting
what we ‘know’ i.e. indoctrination), then we fall through the subconscious.
Then we get it as hallucinations and – ‘delusions’, which is nothing but
the sight of the mountain of Truth, which we shall ascend (through our
work).
But, the wickedness of the Jews does not accept that their idols are
defeated by someone.
”Psychiatry” is Satanism – which already from the beginning begins
to destroy one’s brain and body – if one were to fall and
aim for the mountain of truth. (The mountain of lies is not created by
Allah, but is a pyramid).
The idols – can not stand to be defeated – but they
have the arrogance of the loser and does not let through the real
Messengers.
This is how the myth that the genius have ”delusions” is constructed,
due to these facts.
‘The pathetic delusion’, are two coins – the other’s two sides belong to the
mountain of lies – is the plutocracy of the Jews and the arrogance of idols.
The second coin, has the madness that leads to love which leads to poetry,
which leads to the exalted madness, which the Jews arrogantly say is
‘delusions’ (is this really a coin? Or is it a circle?)
‘His virtue makes him mad’ writes Byron about don Quixote.
‘If they refuse to accept the message – shake off the dust from
your feet and go from there’, says Jesus Christ and adds:
’Indeed: the punishment for the village that denies you will become
worse than Sodom and Gomorrah on the Day of Judgment ’,
which Prophet Muhammad expresses when he says: ‘a
true believer do not make the same mistake twice’.
Narcissism – is to separate from the Creator – to want
the poem but not Him who reveals the poem – wanting
the body – but – not Him who Created it.
The eternal winter of the Narnia saga’s magic witch – is the
mountain of lies of the Jews and the chemical lobotomy of
psychiatry.
The word ’Hell’ comes from a symbol, which is two
triangles with the tip facing down, one a bit below the
other, but still interleaved in this one, which looks like two
libidos falling down.
‘If a blind man leads a blind man – they both end up
in the ditch’. (‘A deaf man who eavesdrops’, as R.H. Blyth
gives as an example of a ‘philosopher’)
The punishment in Islam, for cracking a diamond (a mountain’s
beautiful reflection in a mountain lake, to use a parable), is
stoning to death (the mountain is of stone) (i.e. infidelity to his
partner).
The reason for the increasing mental illness in Sweden –
is that one can divorce without agreement – and – then
the other part falls.
Having relationships before marriage is even more dangerous.
This loose morality – combined with the lie about
Hitler and what he did, i.e. the lie of the Jews, which is
just growing – is the reason.
When you have bound yourself to someone and this person does
not live up to the requirements – as promised in the spirit world or
for real, you ”flush” this person down the toilet.
The toilet (the mountain) remains – but, it has become night so no
reflection is visible any longer.
The cause of impotence is precisely pornography, i.e. Zionism
demands that the slaves of the Jews shall reflect their lies. When Nils
fell in love with Ulrika, he realized that this was the way he had to follow –
if he had gotten involved in her for real at the age of 17, he had needed to become
a reflection of the plutocratic demands of the Jews.
Impotence comes with being divided in your own relationship with your
partner – by not being honest with your weak points in her eyes.
This can lead to sadistic impulses to be able to get erection. What Nils discovered
with Ullis – was that the thought, the hope to get her – broke down the lies and got the
subconscious to be made aware.
Publicerad 2020-08-09 11:24:00 i Hell, Islam, Marcus Mahdi, Prayers, Psychiatry and psychology, Romanticism, Sex, Sin, Suicide,
(the text is translated by Lars Larsen, and is from Marcus Beijar Mellin’s autobiography ”P.S. Bakom stängda dörrar” (P.S. Behind closed doors) from 2018. It is the continuation of the last text)
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Film is harmful, unless it is a documentary that turns your subconscious right – i.e. which reveals brainwashing and puts the puzzle pieces in place.
When the Angels break down the world with spiritual fire – they break down the forces that fill the subconscious by creating fear (i.e hatred), to produce fusion – first – as hallucination – but also in the end as reality. ’What is now a fact was once only imagined’ (William Blake, The Marriage of Heaven and Hell, Chapter: Proverbs of Hell).
That one gets a cold fusion reaction is a spiritual proof that one is on the right path – and that one is free from psychopathy (and narcissism, which is the initial stage of psychopathy. Narcissism: cutting off anything that does not fit one’s form.) The question is whether the Muslim prayer ritual does not precisely symbolize the fusion between the subconscious and Allah.
First you stand straight – then you bend in the middle, and the zikhr or personal prayer is done in a lying position.
Zikhr is a way of cleansing oneself from demons that try to occupy one’s sphere of mind – by putting them down in contraction.
The control freaks constantly try to control by scaring you – and – in this way they put your soul into the subconscious.
Their purpose is to make you a psychopath – so you too will come to Hell like them.
Suicide (Hell) is due to putting one’s physical partner as a partner of Allah – when libido so suddenly falls – one sinks into the subconscious.
When this happens – some jump down a precipice, or drown or hang themselves. (See, for example, Dan Andersson’s poem ‘Per Ols Per Erik’)
When you get stress from discomfort from the subconscious, you have to let go of the lower jaw; to dare look stupid, is a way to attain Allah’s forgiveness. That men do this, when they see a sex bomb, proves my theory.
’Do not gather treasures on earth – where moth devours, thieves break in and rust destroy – no – gather treasures in Heaven – for – where your treasure is – there your heart will also be’ (Jesus Christ, the Gospel), is the precondition for getting cold fusion – the poet’s madness – which embraces the whole world – even though the world persecutes and tortures him.
’Preach for all emotional beings’ (Buddhism).
Jesus’ words – describe here the rule of Islam not to look with desire – but – to pray to Allah, that what you desire will go to Heaven – and fight for this goal.
Instead of putting it in hatred, envy and jealousy into the subconscious – so – you lift it up to the skies.
What Nils did – when he lifted Ulrika up to the skies – and was prepared to go through basically anything for her sake – was precisely to use their love for something productive.
Instead of starting to worship her – the image – he sought Him who created the image.
Without forgetting her of course.
It was through their love, Nils searched, and found contact with the Creator.
The image of Ulrika, and all hopes attached to it, led Nils to Enlightenment.
It was the mountain he attached his subconscious to.
‘If the wheat grain does not fall into the ground and dies – it remains a solitary grain – but – if it falls – it bears much fruit’, i.e. society (the brainwashing of the jews) is a mountain of lies that one must let go of, but, the problem is that one has suppressed so much, so the subconscious is stuck in this mountain of lies.
As Josefina, Ulli’s bestie, said to Nils, just before he let go: ’if you fall now, you will fall far…’ Surely the word ’know’ comes from ’wheat’ which shows the linguistic logic in the Swedish language –
’Satan threatens you with poverty – but – Allah promises your forgiveness and reward ’.
If we let go, we will become poor – the Jews control the economy and the mountain of lies is also the career ladder.
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s, Riches, Schizophrenia, Sex,
(the text is translated by Lars Larsen, and is from the autobiography ”P.S. Bakom stängda dörrar” (P.S. Behind closed doors) from 2018)
’My hat it has three edges
My hat three edges has
And aren’t there three edges,
Then is it not my hat ’
– From a German folk song from the 19th century
Sura 2 verse 25.
’And give good news to the believers – that for them is waiting
Paradisic gardens, under which rivers flow. Each time
they are given fruit from there, they will say:
‘This was what we got earlier in the world’ but they are given
fruit only in parables. And there will be chaste wives for them there –
and in that they will be reborn (be there forever)’
The rivers that flow under – are the images that are formed in
our subconscious when we refuse to look with desire on one
for us attractive object. That is why it always says that
rivers ‘flow under’ in the Quran. Through this, comes
Allah’s grace, usually at night, and latch onto these, and a
cold fusion reaction occurs. This is the real significance of the
Star of David. The higher dream perspective goes into fusion
with images from the subconscious. Every time we get a cold
fusion, we think it’s the other one who answers us – but – really – it’s
a call from the Paradise that awaits us – and that we experience
there and then.
The women (or for women, men) who come to us in
hallucination, are similar to the women we in the world are attracted
to. We think they’re these – but they’re really one Creation of Allah – as –
we have been involved in creating by worshiping Him properly.
’If one of these women of Paradise, would lose her veil
on earth, it would tremble, ”it says in the Sunnah. This is
the description of the incredible power a cold fusion
release. The women who come are Created for us to
meet us in Paradise if we get there.
The works of art or great deeds (basically the same thing) we do
on these occasions – is the proof of the authenticity of our
experience and these are also like the birds’ song – a way
to convince the people we think the cold fusion applies to – to
marry us – and then reach Paradise themselves.
But, as Shakespeare writes: the madman, the lover
and the poet are of imagination compact.
I.e. we must seek this love that cold fusion is, in
this miserable world, where most worship Mammon.
This is the reason why poetry is said to be related
with madness. Rumi did the prayer: Oh Allah: let me
stay crazy until Doomsday.
I.e. continue to have cold fusions, and then burn so of
Heavenly love for fellow human beings, that one
preaches Islam, and tries to convince the cause of the
subconscious images Allah transforms into Paradise
experiences, to become Muslims, and to worship Allah properly,
enter into one’s school, and marry oneself (at least 4 wives).
Matthew Arnold writes: ‘he who desires something, does not want to
have it only as an idea, but as a reality ’(actually from
Thomas of Aquina’s Summa Theologica:
”He who is drawn to something desirable – does not just want it
as a thought, but as a thing’)
Pornography is to put oneself as the partner of Allah – that is
the Zionist star that looks like the Star of David,
instead of this. (‘As it is on earth, so also in heaven’
said ironically / sarcastically).
You are trying to fix a ”cold fusion” yourself – without Allah’s
love that gives it to you.
Therefore, onanism is forbidden in Islam (if masturbation does not
come as an edict, a commandment from Allah), and
instead of releasing energy that strengthens your zikhr so
the subconscious becomes occupied by the virus, which
reproduces itself in endless copies – and then attacks you
when you soften out of love, then the scenes you watched that began
the porn movie, or nude pictures you masturbated to, are played
up in your brain, and, you become fragmented – this can lead to
schizophrenia or even psychopathy, depending on whether you
choose to openly admit that Virus B-23 has attacked you – or
if you pretend ”it’s raining”.
That the subconscious is turned away from the triangle with the tip
down to the triangle with the tip up (the mountain road) is called
libido – you get an erection – pornography thus leads to impotence.
The higher perspective of virus B-23 is mechanical;
electricity, upper class dominance, etc.
This then begins to guide you through the virus.
The reason why women should cover themselves, or men
should not not look with desire at them, is because the upper class should not
gain dominance.
‘You cannot worship both Mammon and Allah at the same time’
says Jesus Christ in the Gospel.